SHe wAs in LoVE wItH ThIs WoRld

There she stood alone and wanders from one place to another to find what she lost. She was searching everywhere, and you know what she was not sure what she was actually looking for. Has she lost something really?

Has she lost something precious? Has she yet found? What caused her to lose? Or whether were all things her own? Or she ever had them her's? 

Nothing was never her only. She was just living a dream in the fantasy world. She made that her priority because she was lacking courage to face the realities. She was so afraid to see the real world and the realities that exist in the world unknown to her.

She was damn happy but remember she was in her dreams. And dreams are not lasting, and they just let you down so badly. Badly to an extent where no one can find a way to get back moving again.

Why was she obsessed with it? You know what she was searching love. Love from everyone, in whatsoever shape she had it. She never thought what she was doing to herself. Never thought where will this all lead to her. 

How cunning it is that she believed in fake realities. She found herself comfortable in that. How pathetic her imagination was, how bad her believes were. The beliefs that destroyed her. The world that threw her out so immediately that she was not able to get up again. She was numb and she was lost somewhere. Her identity, her pride, her emotions were all shattered. They all went to the sky, they all were gone.

Why to worry then? For what reason, this is want she wanted, at the end of the day she was believer of fairy tales. Why to mourn over that? Was that not what she wanted? Yes, she wanted that. Why to regret over it? Why to regret over it again.

She did only on mistake. What that can be? She is not herself sure of? Maybe of finding love in other way, maybe the lust of care, maybe the dreams that she believed in. 

No, the only mistake she made was that this world is real, and what she dreamed of was all nothing just mere her own world of imagination. Those imaginations have no worth. That was what she forgot. That is what destroyed her and she was now physically and emotionally tired. 

She lost all! All her support, all her aims, all her goals. And the worst part was she lost her Hope. He was her BIGGEST AND MOST NEEDED HOPE. What will she do now? 

How Is she surviving now? That is a question that everyone would search for.

Listen!............

 She was breathing, she was living, she still exist. 

HOW SHE IS DOING IT ALL STILL?

The hope! The hope that still lives within her, and that never lets her quit all. The hope that one day it will all get settled. 

Now, she sits in her room locked, talks to no one, find her self dying inside. She tries to read, but she is left with nothing, then watching tears on her every page she reads. She watches herself into the mirror that lefts her with tears trickling down her cheeks. 

She makes pillow wet at night and she gives pain to herself. She is killing herself. And there is no one who could save her. And she is afraid of her losing breathes, that will leave a drastic change to lives of those associative with her.

But when she sees people watching her, she suddenly brings a big smile to her face. HERE?? Yes, she is still afraid of people around her. She never wants people to know her chaos that exists inside. That exists and she is trying her utmost to hide it. How painful that will be, no one can imagine. How strong she is from inside. 

The difference that came was that she accepted the fate, and she just changed the way she use to live.